I've come to this

I've come to my conclusion.

This is my conclusion of my life thus far.

Cause after this i will not be here any longer

I won't be able  to say hello,

or later babe, how are, how is it with your lover, I love ya i'll talk to you soon.

I won't be around, to say the things which need to be said.

i won't be gone for long.

i just won't be around for a while.

Going to take care of a few things

and tie up a few loose ends.

getting my life arranged, and taking care of business.

So i am leaving it up to you, to help fill in my shoes.

offer up a few words of encouragement, despite how you truly feel.

Stop drinking when you realize your friends arent going to.

smile more when around those you don't like.

And feel free to slap that stupid bitch that is irritating us all.

so tonight was a good night.  strange and different, but good nonetheless.  Confirmed some things i knew were true. but  i didn't want to deal with.  Weez is with rich.  good guy and wish the two the very best and before i knew or even thought they were together i told him to take care of her.  real good care along with brittney weezer's friend.  and if not, i'd break his legs.  he told me he knows and will.  my friends mean too much to me to simply let someone hurt them.  i don't play games when it comes to them.  i will do it, no questions asked.  I just need to take myself off hold like i do so well. And move forwards, my entire life is in front of me, and i don't want something from my past inhibiting my future.  i cannot handle that anymore.  It hurts way too much. 

happy birthday to me.  :)

FEAST or FAMINE?